Finally… updates!

It has been a while since I last posted. There was really nothing interesting enough that would spur me to write up an entry. However, since I have finished my work for today and I still have some spare time, I guess I will just rant off anything that comes to mind.

Why not I start with a quick update for those who want to know what is going on in Damian’s life? Nothing much has changed since the last time I posted. I am still attached to a beautiful lady. Ha… I am still church-less. Oh! Thank God that I am still working in Creative. Just renew my contract that will see me through 24 April 2007. However, the pay remains the same… Okay, it is certainly better than wage-less. Let me see if there is any thing else. Nothing much… Oh! I am on an exercise regime. One that I hope I can stick to. I really need to lose some weight because I have ballooned ever since this beautiful lady came into my life and stuff me with her unfinished food. Ha! Now you see why there is this phrase, “Beauty and the Beast.” The beast cannot help it… Beauty does not want to eat, so the beast has to step up to the plate and help the beauty. Ha!

Just recently, I just sat through a rather eye opening event. I thought that such drama would only happen in the movies! I was wrong! I do not think that it is necessary for me to go into the details, as I do not want this post to hurt anyone. I never thought that I would see someone, especially a girl, go into a relationship only to give up suddenly, so that the person could get back into a previous relationship the following day. The person must be really cold and emotionless. All I have to say is that I do feel bad for my dear friend. If I were to go into this story, I do not think that this one post would be enough, as there was a history to it and to miss out on any of the points would be unfair to those involved. Anyway, I still think that love is such a mystery. I have recently just drawn a picture of a love being engulfed in flames with the caption, “Rub it the wrong way and it will burn you; Catch it the right way and it will ignite your heart with passion!”

Love is indeed something that no one can fully grasped. The process of love, how it is built up, how it move about… in fact, love is so mysterious, it does not have a standard path. So now, for those inquisitive minds, let me make this clear. I am talking about love on a human level, love that can be beautiful and at the same time, ugly. To be able to behold love is a blessing one would dearly grab on to. To be burnt from it, one would then question its existence. Such is the power of love.

I am amazed! Once I started to pen my thoughts, words will flow like an unstoppable river… gushing and overflowing its bank. I, however, have the power to stop this from becoming too overwhelming, so I think I would just stop here. I will be looking forward to the next time when I have the luxury to sit down with no distractions and the time to paint out the pictures in my mind. I guess I would leave you all with something I wrote to a friend, in reply to a statement a friend of mine made while we were discussing about how we view a relationship.

I don’t control every step that I take for I believe that God will lead me.
However, I don’t take a step at a time, wondering what my next step would be for I have a journey, a path in front of me.
The path may change. Yes! But still there is a path that I am on.
I don’t get dishearten when my path changes.
Rather, I learn to adjust and adapt, so I can continue to walk down the new path.

A tribute to my Grandmother

1st of March 2006 marks the passing on of my grandmother. The FIRST time losing someone close in the family. I had mixed feelings about the news. Although I was glad to know that she would no longer had to suffer the pain anymore here on earth, I am sad that she has to leave!

I have been close with my grandmother since young! To look back, many things happened between us. I remember that when I was young, I would kick her when I was in my bed, whenever she wanted me to wake me up, so that she could bring me to church for mass. I was too young to know her well intentions and too lazy to attend sunday masses with her. There are times when I would extort money from her during Chinese New Year too. Haha… Well, I wouldn’t say these were proud moments of my life. I would, however, like to thank my grandmother for being the wonderful lady she had always been. Someone who would always take my full load of nonsense, someone who really took care of me, someone who was always there to pray for me and someone who LOVES me DEARLY! Thinking back, I am really at a loss right now! I will no longer be able to talk to her and touch her.

It hurts to have to go through the death of someone close but I am encouraged and delighted to know that she has gone to somewhere better, somewhere peaceful… into the arms of God! This sunday will be the day of her cremation. Until then, I will be there to accompany my grandmother at the wake.

It feels so different to see someone lying there motionless, not responding, not looking back at you when you want to interact with her. I will always miss the days when I tried to tease her. I will also remember the days when she would say ‘Thank you’ when I went to visit her while she was sick. Certainly, I will remember her as someone who is strong, someone who is devoted to God, someone who can take hardships and someone who loves us very much! I want to thank God for blessing me with such a wonderful lady! One who took care of me since I was a baby. I LOVE YOU, GRANDMA!

A warm smile
was always there to embrace us.
A gentle touch
was all she had for us.
A devoted heart
showed us your passion for God.
This is our grandmother.

Your fighting spirit
encouraged us to be stronger.
Your peaceful body
will always remind us of the wonderful times.
You are our beloved grandmother.

Now that you are gone,
the fond memories we had with you,
we will hold it closely to our hearts.

We will always love you;
pray for you;
miss you;
think about you
and we will always thank God for you.