Wow… I am glad that I have friends who actually check out my blog… to see how I am doing in my life… Haha… It is encouraging to see that… Knowing that I am indeed not alone on my journey called life.
Just thought of something… I recalled reading a book that has the following title, “Tuesday with Morrie”. This gave me an inspiration to start something… something which will goes like that… “Everyday with God.” I really wonder if I will be disciplined to actually update this project of mine as often as I can… I know that if I were to embark on this project… the encouragements which God gave me will be reflected on deeply before posting it online. This will indeed be one good way of keeping tabs on the lessons which God is trying to teach me… and maybe one day… haha… yeah… one faithful day, just like Pst Phil Pringle’s “Leadership Files,” it will be published into a book… haha… and just like Mitch Albom, I will be New York Times bestselling author! Haha…
Yeah… just came back from CG… was really tired… still roughing it out in the valley… trying to bring myself together! Just like I was sharing yesterday… I really felt the endless plunge into eternal darkness last night… but after opening up here… I felt so much better… like a heavy burden been lifted up from my shoulders… though things are still not perfect, I felt that Someone was actually reaching out to me… trying to grab me… to save me from this plunge!
I really do look forward to the day when I will share about my victory from this struggle which I am facing now, struggling to get myself back on the road God has built for me… It is too narrow to the point that I actually fell from it… into this valley which I am in now! haha… I don’t blame Him, my God… He just wants to perfect me… to train me into a person who can balance and walk on this NARROW road which will He has intended me to be on.
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hate darkness… I hate the state which I am in right now!! This thorn… which is in my flesh… poking in areas which I wanna hide… digging in the parts of my life which I thought I have thrown away… argh….
“And He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.”