Just really wanna thank God for His grace… Started to feel a bit trancy, dazy, gorgy about a week back! However, the past week has been a really hectic one for me! I had to go for drama rehearsals and it was really intense! 🙂 Nonetheless, God really gave me the grace, strength and clarity in mind to attend the rehearsals and ultimately ACT during the two performance! Although the roles that I have were not really MAJOR ones, I thank God for even giving me the chance and the grace to carry out my role! 🙂 I have never, never and never doubted His grace! Indeed His grace is sufficient for me and I am so blessed to have known this GOD, the only TRUE God! I cannot thank Him enough for creating me… and even for loving me FIRST!
Things have happened in the pasts… mistakes were made… but He is always there… to refresh me, to bless me, to heal me and to TELL me how much He loves me! Wow… with such a wonderful Father, Friend, Helper, who needs love from this world! For this world is only temporary but the real life begins in eternity, IN HEAVEN! 🙂 Sometimes, I really wonder why people who have experienced God will wanna backslide. Hmm… maybe it is because they have lost sight and lost the fact that this world is only TEMPORARY! I am so sad to see many of my friends whom I knew from church falling away from God… My heart is crying out for God to TOUCH them… to REFRESH them anew! Day after day, praying that they will be back and to be gone from the grip of this world! There is this saying… “we are in this WORLD, but we are not OF this WORLD!” Therefore, from them, I began to understand the importance of knowing who you are serving and the purpose in doing what you are doing. We can be serving so hard and fellowshipping so hard… only for a wrong purpose! Friends, I am happy that you are even reading my blog but I earnestly remind you not to forget your SOURCE… Our Lord God!
This past year, 2004, has been a great one! Although many, and I mean MANY things happened, I am glad that I have gone through them! 🙂 It has really moulded in one way or another… given me new perspectives… challenged my mindset and I have to say that capacity has been enlarged! One MAJOR lesson I learnt is that I should not assume how people look at me… for sometimes, I may think that a certain person may despise me… but in actual fact, they do not! 🙂 Isn’t that really stupid…. to put your perspective into someone elses. However, we should not be steered by how people look at us too… there should be a balance though… we also cannot say that we totally do not care about how others look at us! 🙂 For people see our faith by our ACTIONS! 🙂 Anyway, this has got to do with pride and I am slowly but surely dealing with it with the help of Holy Spirit!
I thank God for blessing me with great friends and CG members!!! Really blessed to be in W236 because they are like DADDIES and MUMMIES to me!! 🙂 Love them all… Always there to encourage me when I am down… when I feel like quitting! 🙂 Apart from them… I have great friends to encourage me too… Brother Bruce, Emily, Alyssa, Gary… and so much more! In one way or another, they have really coloured my year! 🙂
One last thing I wanna share is that we should all RUN after wisdom! After 2 years in church, one thing one should not be lacking is GODLY WISDOM! 🙂 We do make mistakes here and there but we should be wise and to LEARN from them… not going back to the same old mistakes again! I have really learnt the importance of being wise… to be wise is better than having Gold and to have understanding is better than to have Silver.. 🙂 Wisdom comes from the fear of God and one who loves instructions and correction is seeking wisdom! I know it is hard to be discipled! I even know how much you will wanna SHOUT BACK when someone CORRECTS you… but you know what? Only people who loves you will wanna WASTE their precious time correcting you! 🙂 therefore, cherish those corrections and those discipleship sessions! 🙂 hehe… God bless and until next time… 🙂 SEE ya… and may God bless the new year for you…
Oh!! One more thing… pray for my sickness… 🙂 It is known as dissociative state or depersonalisation for now! 🙂 Prayers work so never stop obmitting me from your prayers! Haha