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Interesting comment!

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I got this comment in my blog today:

“You seem to talk alot about God but yet seems like you have left Him long ago!?”

When I saw this comment, I was kinda shocked at how shallow this person is. No offence though. I was thinking… why would he/she make this kind of comment? How did he/she know if I have left God?

The question here is not about leaving God. The question I have is what or who is God to this person? I believe this person, let’s name him/her Z. Z should be someone I know or someone who knows who I am. I believe why Z said what he/she said was because he/she knows certain things, which are happening in my life.

So the question is… must someone do or meet a certain requirement(s) before he/she can be passed of as with God? Similarly, if someone else does not, does that qualify him/her to be not with God? This worries me because the whole idea of God is so messed up.

God is the reason why we do certain things, eg. attending services, reading the Bible, praying, etc. However, does doing all these things means that a person has God? This, I will not want to answer. Similarly, not attending service does not mean that a person is without God. He may just be going through some issues in life and he may be sorting them out at this current moment. Therefore, this really scares me! It is when people start to have a fixed view on certain things and they start to pass them off as a truth. Instead of helping, it may have deterring effects.

I am certainly not angry with that comment. I am, however, disappointed with what Z said, to pass off a certain conclusion based on his/her own reasoning. I do believe, like what I shared two posts ago, that we have to be wiser in our words, to be sensitive towards others. Words are powerful and they DO kill! Not literally but it can kill a man’s soul!

The Room

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Check out this wonderful and touching story! I was browsing through some MSNSpaces and I happened to stumble into this little heaven… and that is where I got to read this beautiful illustration…

The Room

In that place between wakefulness and dreams, I found myself in the room. There were no distinguishing features. Except for the one wall covered with small index card files. They were like the ones in libraries that list titles by author or subject in alphabetical order. But these files , which stretched from floor to ceiling and seemingly endlessly in either direction, had very different headings. As I drew near the wall of files , the first to catch my attention was one that read “People I Have Liked”. I opened it and began flipping through the cards. I quickly shut it, shocked to realize that I recognized the names written on each one.

And then without being told, I knew exactly where I was.

This lifeless room with its small files was a crude catalog system for my life. Here were written the actions of my every moment, big and small, in a detail my memory couldn’t match.
A sense of wonder and curiosity, coupled with horror, stirred within me as I began randomly opening files and exploring their content. Some brought joy and sweet memories; others a sense of shame and regret so intense that I would look over my shoulder to see if anyone was watching. A file named “Friends” was next to one marked “Friends I Have Betrayed.” The titles ranged from the mundane to the outright weird. “Books I Have Read”, “Lies I Have Told”, “Comfort I Have Given”, “Jokes I Have Laughed At”. Some were almost hilarious in their exactness: “Things I’ve Yelled at My Brothers.” Others I couldn’t laugh at: “Things I Have Done in My Anger”, “Things I Have Muttered Under My Breath at My Parents”. I never ceased to be surprised by the contents.
Often there were many more cards than I expected. Sometimes fewer than I hoped. I was overwhelmed by the sheer volume of the life I had lived. Could it be possible that I had the time in my 20 years to write each of these thousands or even millions of cards? But each card confirmed this truth. Each was written in my own handwriting. Each signed with my signature.

When I pulled out the file marked “Songs I Have Listened To”, I realized the files grew to contain their contents. The cards were packed tightly, and yet after two or three yards, I hadn’t found the end of the file. I shut it, shamed, not so much by the quality of music, but more by the vast amount of time I knew that file represented. When I came to a file marked “Lustful Thoughts”, I felt a chill run through my body. I pulled the file out only an inch, not willing to test its size, and drew out a card. I shuddered at its detailed content. I felt sick to think that such a moment had been recorded. An almost animal rage broke on me. One thought dominated my mind: “No one must ever see these cards! No one must ever see this room! I have to destroy them!” In an insane frenzy I yanked the file out. Its size didn’t matter now. I had to empty it and burn the cards. But as I took it at one end and began pounding it on the floor, I could not dislodge a single card. I became desperate and pulled out a card, only to find it as strong as steel when I tried to tear it.

Defeated and utterly helpless, I returned the file to its slot. Leaning my forehead against the wall, I let out a long, self-pitying sigh. And then I saw it. The title bore “People I Have Shared the Gospel With”. The handle was brighter than those around it, newer, almost unused. I pulled on its handle and a small box not more than three inches long fell into my hands. I could count the cards it contained on one hand.

And then the tears came. I began to weep. Sobs so deep that the hurt started in my stomach and shook through me. I fell on my knees and cried. I cried out of shame, from the overwheming shame of it all. The rows of file shelves swirled in my tear-filled eyes. No one must ever, ever know of this room. I must lock it up and hide the key.

But then as I pushed away the tears, I saw Him.

No, please not Him. Not here! Oh, anyone but Jesus. I watched helplessly as He began to open the files and read the cards. I couldn’t bear to watch His response. And in the moments I could bring myself to look at His face, I saw a sorrow deeper than my own. He seemed to intuitively go to the worst boxes. Why did He have to read every one?

Finally He turned and looked at me from across the room. He looked at me with pity in His eyes. But this was a pity that didn’t anger me. I dropped my head, covered my face with my hands and began to cry again. He walked over and put His arm around me. He could have said so many things. But He didn’t say a word. He just cried with me. Then He got up and walked back to the wall of files. Starting at one end of the room, He took out a file and, one by one, began to sign His name over mine on each card.

“No!” I shouted rushing to Him. All I could find to say was “No, no,” as I pulled the card from Him. His name shouldn’t be on these cards. But there it was, written in red so rich, so dark, so alive. The name of Jesus covered mine.


It was written with His blood.
He gently took the card back. He smiled a sad smile and began to sign the cards. I don’t think I’ll ever understand how He did it so quickly, but the next instant it seemed I heard Him close the last file and walk back to my side. He placed His hand on my shoulder and said, “It is finished.”

I stood up, and He led me out of the room. There was no lock on its door. There were still cards to be written.

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